Stream-of-Conscious

… okay ... if I wish to post anything to this blog it will have to be as a stream-of-conscious … because … the editor in my brain is tired and is looking out at the sunrise or sunset … and … no matter how much I poke at him … [for some reason he's male] … I can't get his attention … instead … I get "you know, I think you would enjoy reading another Regency romance novel … why not pick one up and go and lie down?" … the editor in my brain knows I am easily distracted … and … has begun to try and tempt me to be elsewhere … WAIT … is that a big shiny thing! … who is this psychic creature that knows me so well … as I play the submissive to the master…

 

… okay … my editor knows my weaknesses … a gallon of ice cream … easy … hmmm… so … the secret is to keep none in the house … enough of that …

 

… what does it mean when someone writes or says "life's mysteries?" … is life indecipherable or patternless? … are we / do we exist/ in a monster's dream? … I don't get it … we become editors of our thoughts … "I should have done this or I should have said that" … while writers write to find themselves and to discover what they think … I've been at it for years … and … I still don't have a clue …

 

… he had the mindset to look for the big / the universal / in the small events … tiny parts that create the whole … rather than the whole broken down into tiny parts … his description / story / of the elephant would be just as interesting as the real elephant … in fact … there would be many elephants … some with big ears … some with tiny tails … each part creating an animal … he thought, "that's friendlier to the elephant than dissecting a real elephant into parts" … ahhh … yes … this is easier if I take the "me" out of the story …

 

… but I digress … I love black-and-white movies … they are beautiful lies … while color is a distraction … I should know … a charcoal portrait in black-and-white is a 100 times harder than one in color … put green in the shadow of the nose and you don't notice the eyes and mouth are odd … or … "that's an artist's aesthetic decision" … color will excite a portrait … but … an artist needs to know more about "art" when we need to "excite" black-and-white … a black-and-white drawing is like taking hold of one part of that elephant … how do you show an animal while you hold a big ear? … the idea began with the Impressionists … and … brought to the sublime by Picasso … who … understood … while he made hundreds [if not thousands] of experimental black-and-white drawings trying to step outside our perceived reality … where space is a beautiful lie … also …

Ida Kotyuk, Portrait Painter©

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